A wake up call.

Ive realised my life
has been spiralling out of control lately.

I no longer feel
the happiness I used to have
and the love and care
that I used to be showered with.

It's sad really.

In one way im glad
i get to bum around
and getting up to whatever time
I want to wake up to
and cooking a big feast
because ive all the time in the world.

On the other hand,
I miss studying
and Im excited about my first
permanent job,
despite the fact it's strange
that im not satisfied with it
and I still want more.

Am i never going to be content
with what I have?

However, I do think
some quiet alone time
is sometimes good
because I get my me-time
and to do some reflection.

Even though I feel lonely,
I guess sometimes its just good
to curl up in bed with a good hot Milo
and blogging in bed. :)