Stick to my guns?

Honestly,
this is the first time
im really not bothered
running away from things.

Usually if i think it just isnt right,
i'll just pick myself up and leave.

So its so confusing
with what i want at the moment,
when i really ain't bothered
that if i was leaving for the right reasons.

Or maybe im just getting too tired
or rather just too old for this.