The pain.

I was reminded by it
just the other day.

I woke up to a nightmare
that i lost a friend
that passed away from a natural death
while i wasnt in the country.

I was crying so much in the dream.
So much drama and pain.

I woke up
and tried to recollect back
what just happened.

I even went on facebook
to check if that friend was still alright.

But the pain.

God.
I could feel it
like its so freshly burned
and a sting to my heart as I thought of *her*.

I was totally reminded
of the time when I first lost her,
so much pain and acceptance I had to take.

No more laughing in the car,
no more phone calls
and no more hang outs
on the college's mezzanine floor.

I feel like a jerk
that I havent made any time
to go and visit her
and I know theres no excuse
as ive been back home for the last 7 months.

God.
Is it possible to miss someone so bad
that you can no longer ever see or hear from again?

Sometimes i ask myself,
why cant i be given a last chance
to see her again.

Why cant i?
Why must she go?
Why must we accept fate?
Why must we grow up!





I should go away for a while.

Sometimes i feel better
when i do things to take my mind off her
but i do feel bad that if i really do,
she'll think she's forgotten...


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Macau


Okay.

Something went seriously wrong
with my photoshop
so you'll notice there would be
some pictures edited
and most of them not. -_- haha!

Well good news is,
all you see up here is in the flesh!

No photoshop edit! hehe

Okay.
Pictures only
as Im too lazy to caption them.

































Thanks Daphne
for showing us such a wonderful time.

It was even better than the *first time*
that I went with my family for Christmas
in late 2007.

Of course also not forgetting,
my baby girl, AlcoK
who had been the most awesome travelling partner
on this amazing trip!

Phew!

That's all folks
for my Hong Kong and Macau trip!

Next, Sandakan pictures. T_T haha!

Better'd get that photoshop fixed man! >_<