The After-Party-Life.

So i was recently reminded
of how crazy my life was
before i got sick.

How i was the first one there
if there were free-flow of alcohol
and how i'd be out clubbing
every other night.

People think im different,
now that i no longer have
alcohol in my hands
or how i go out without my makeup
or how im wearing knee-length skirts now. T_T

I mean,
have i really changed
that much?

People asked if i miss the lifestyle,
if i actually still do go out at night
instead of telling them that i sleep at 10pm,
and that if i still do drink like i did.

I can honestly say,
yes i sleep at 10
and yes i do miss having
a social life
but when i think about the drama,
the horrible and regretful things
ive done in the past,
im thinking to myself,
wow, how did i live up to that man. haha

Funny enough,
i wanna concentrate on my career
but i found you've gotta have the social circle
in order to be quick in this business,
which is also a problem. T_T haha!

I guess im done
and there were many times
where ive thought
of bringing my old-self back
but im just not interested anymore.

Anyway,
im leaving you with the latest
by Taio and Travie,
while i entertain the sick boyfriend
who is so demanding at the moment. -_-