*Edit* 9am
Scratch that.
I cant sit around
being selfish.
Its about his mum afterall
and not Ros's anymore.
And as a friend,
I should be there supporting him.
Okay. Im gonna get change and go.
*Edit Ends*
Its been a while
ive wrote out completely
about whats been going on
in my life.
Im here sitting in my hall
at 7am on a holiday
thinking ive to go to work. -_-
Too much going on in my head,
so i decided to come out here
to write a piece of my mind.
Its barely touching February
and i feel that its been so drama
to the new year.
A recent event
reminded of how short
life can be and it gave me
flashbacks of the last *funeral*
ive attended with full of emotions
and so much anger.
It's partially the reason
i just had to decline his offer
to his mum's waking and funeral,
its so much pain going thru things again
and with my *vision* still
not at its complete stage,
i just couldnt risk tearing.
If you have read my blog long enough,
you would know i have 3 unsung heroes
appearing every now and then
on my blog.
They are the people
who inspires me,
the people who motivates me
and the people i love the most,
besides my family of course.
I wont say i would completely understand
what that friend of mine,
would be going thru now
but at least i have an idea
of how upsetting it is
to have someone leave you forever.
He was handling it surprisingly well
when i last saw him
as it was so different to my reaction
when i first got the call about *her* passing.
I dont know if you're reading this,
but i would just like to say
my deepest condolences to you
and your dearest family
and that i'll always be here
if you need someone to talk to, okay? :)
Despite all the sadness lingering,
i love having silver linings
in between dark clouds.
The first thing i could read
on my iphone when i first woke up
after a long nap from my surgery,
was my long-time girlfriend asked me
to be her bridesmaid end of this month!
Crap man.
I just realised its a pattern,
all my girlfriends from Singapore
are getting married
or having children already. -_-
So ive decided
on a 3 week strict diet
to fit into the bridesmaid cheongsam
and damn CNY is in 2 days. T_T
So we'll see in 3 weeks
if that fails or succeeds. haha!
On another random note,
its weird but even after 8 months
im still so in love with my job.
The best decision
ive ever made in my life.
Okay.
Time to rest those eyes. heh.
And in case i dont blog soon again,
Happy CNY people! :)
