I'll miss this.

Our late night strolls,
our dinner dates,
and our tv show marathons.

But i know what im sacrificing for
and i know its my choice to give this up.

Sometimes i get pissed off
with the lack of self-esteem
you have in yourself.

I wish you could see what i see
the potential in you for a bigger ambition.

Something great happened yesterday
but im not allowed to mention about it just yet.

I just want you to know
that i know what im getting myself into
and i believe in you 110% that
you're destined for more and bigger things.

So what if theres less time together
and so what if family plans get pushed aside?

I'll still stand by you to support
your every move as your loyal and loving wife.

Just thought i should tell you
i believe in you and you can do this
but whatever the decision is,
i'll still be very proud of you.

This is for the many more great
and awesome things to come.

Working Hard.

Sorry for the lack of posts lately
but its been overwhelming with
work on weekdays and classes on weekends.

Im so tired that i dont know where to begin
and the boy had been taking up extra jobs
just so he could support us and
our upcoming wedding.

Will try to blog more soon.

There are plenty of belated pictures
that i would loveeee to share. :)

Like a boss.

Literally. haha

Mum took a picture
of daddy in their office
just the other day.

Hehe. Yeah dad!
Tell 'em who's boss! hoho


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Some self-planning.


Update: Okay looks like its a no go for Guangzhou. -_- SIGH!


With much frustration
for quite sometime,
im finally picking myself up
and working things out.

Its officially less than a year
to the big day and i have yet
to go look for my 'Kuah',
which is the Chinese traditional
wedding costume.

After stopping for over a month
due to health reasons,
i intend to start back my gym sessions.

Also since I really cant go anywhere
till i finish my exams,
I hope my family would agree
to the trip to Guangzhou
this coming January 2013.

So that's:

1) Start gym again
2) Study hard. At least 2-3 hours daily.
3) Work hard and build my career!

After my exams in Dec,
I would be putting down
the deposit for my gown
and also go 'Kuah' hunting,
before starting with my
Level 2 classes.

The next 365 days is going
to be a wonderful and unforgettable year!

Didnt go well.

Ok so it didnt go
as well as i hoped it would
and i admit i was devastated
by his words so piercing harsh,
that i dont think he noticed it
through his thick skin.

I was so heartbroken
with him being so stereotyped
and judging without knowing
what ive gone thru and what i will
go through for my dreams
but that's okay
because im stronger than this.

I was sweating like crazy
and if my track records
cant prove to you how much
I really need it,
then theres no point begging
because just as i got home
another door opened
to another part of achieving my goals.

So I took two panadols last night,
slept for only 6 hours
and eyes are puffy as hell
that i cant see my screen properly
but im not going to let you or any stereotypes
bring me down on achieving my dreams.

And for those who wanted to know
what he said,
he said he thought i couldnt do it
because i was FEMALE.

Yes.
So let the judging begin.

Life changing.

I would say the past week
had been fairly difficult on me.

I have been feeling slight feverish
for a couple of days
and on top of that,
some really difficult challenges
in my job had really put me to a test
of patience.

I would say I was close to
breaking down and cry,
as I hate feeling like a failure.

I know i'll bounce back eventually soon
but it seems like all the hard work
ive been putting in had been wiped out
and its for me to start all over again.

Also might I add,
having to do part time studying
is really taking a toll on me
and im feeling the stress, pressure
and the one thing i crave most now, sleep.

So ive decided
to take this weekend
a little slower and relax
as I havent had a proper weekend
to actually just kick back and do nothing.

Also after a super busy 2 weeks,
i finally found time today
to go back to the gym.

It feels so good to be back on the treadmill
although it might take me a while again
to get my stamina back.

On another note,
its back to the annual tradition that my family do
for the 7th Chinese month aka Ghost month,
to go on vegetarian the entire month,
which starts on the 17th.

I must say that i am rather excited
this time round.

I mean after all ive been doing
49 days of vegetarian TWICE
in the past year for both my
grandfather and *grandmother*,
that passed away 6 months apart.

So an easy 30 days is prolly nothing
to me now isnt? hehe ;p

An Opportunity.

It's so rare opportunities like these
falls in my lap.

Friend said i should.
Mum said i shouldnt.

Mum thinks i wont have the time
with my new schooling schedule.

Good god.
What am i going to do?! T_T

Life is life-long lesson.

Life isnt easy,
but i make the best out of it.

People say im so positive
and cheerful as a person
but its reasons like this
that i need this blog so much
just to keep me sane.

People cant dwell on spilt milk
but they can learn from mistakes
and thats exactly what im going to do.

But most importantly,
im not gonna forget to enjoy myself
because i know my responsibilities
as an adult would soon come.

Away for the weekend.

Im so excited that my hand shakes
as im typing this. -_-

Will blog more when i can. :)

Stress.

So stressed out its not funny.

My head hurts from spinning too much
and as calm as i try to be,
i cant help feeling afraid.

It's not anyone would anticipate
from an early morning feeling
and i hate it.

Its making my head feel heavy
and ive got night classes tonight as well
to last through the day.

How the hell am i going to do this?

Sigh.

I just cant wait for tomorrow...

Falling into place.

Im loving how things
are falling in place for us.

Money may be a big issue
but im so glad we're managing
just fine. :)

On another exciting note,
im going back to school. :D

Okay not literally school,
but a classroom for weekend classes
for my CFA examination this December.

Now all i need is 6 months of concentration
to get over this once and for all
then i can focus all my energy
into the wedding next year.

Also after stopping for a month,
im going to resume my training
back in the gym. >_<

On another random note,
ive got a strong feeling
its going to be
crazy busy this week.

T_T


US picture will resume soon
when ive the time to edit the photos. hehe.

I love it when my boss says GO.

You know what that means... hoho

ITS TIME TO MAKE SOME MONEY BAYBEH! :D


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Instagram: 1st night in SF


Related posts: *Pre-Frisco*







Our home for 5 nights,
Hilton @ Union Square. :)












More to come...

Pure rants.

Long rant post
so feel free to skip over this
if you're not in a mood for mopping. haha!

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So im still recovering.
Yes its been over a week now.

The boy is also sick
with flu, cough and fever.

Wedding preps are giving me migraines
and dont get me started on the finances.

Ok let me start out one by one.

Its come to a point,
i honestly cant bother
how many wedding would look like.

Im beginning to accept
the standard offer a hotel can provide -
to look like every other wedding ceremony
with the same backdrop, same dummy cake
and same concept.

I cant even be bothered if
i actually had a wedding now.

Im so tired of planning and choosing
and deciding that i just wanna be registered
and get over it.

I mean isnt there bigger things
in life to look forward to later?

On another note,
finances are tight
that we're squeezing out
every penny we've got.

Its not like we're spending unnecessarily,
i mean if you've been a long-time reader of mine,
you would have noticed ive stopped clubbing
or rather travelling that much anymore.

Let alone having time to even travel
within the country. -_-

And I miss travelling so much,
although i honestly cant wait
for my big trip in another week or so
to the United States of A!

Okay, that aside.

I realise having a lot of patience
helps you deal with the market,
and im coming back slowly bit by bit
altho there are some setbacks
but i know im bound to bounce back soon. ;)

I just really cant wait for that big boom
that will help me in all my financial needs. :)

Oh and I HAVE to start
my gym sessions again. T_T HAHA

Lots of patience.

You know how the saying goes,
"Patience is a virtue"?

Well its true.

Whether its climbing a career ladder
or building a relationship
or just pure patience that will bring you
to great heights with the right market feel.

Ive been quite diligent on my
wedding plans lately.

Getting ideas since ive set a theme now
and the initial venue that we have decided
might have to be moved due to budget constrain.

But its all good
and im starting to see thing
in a more positive manner
after being down for 2 weeks.

Im gonna pick up gymming again
and since ive been down with
food poisoning since Friday,
i really just cant wait to be
healthy again.

On an even brighter note,
its 2 weeks to go to USA!

The boy is extremely excited
to be away as its his first time
and to such a far away land.

Oh and we're going to Disneyland in Los Angeles!

I hope they'll be wifi there to blog
but its definitely going to be great
and i really cant wait. :)

PATIENCE, SHER. PATIENCE! :D

Wedding Stuff

So ive finally decided
to take matters in my own hands
and plan my wedding matters on my own.

Ive some ideas
and putting them into actions
would be something i need to
force myself to do.

Ive googled a bunch of stuff,
saved them up and keeping them
as ideas or backups
and its keeping my adrenaline
pumping at the moment.

Too bad its only late next year. -_-

I cant believe its already April 2012,
time passes so quickly.

I need to re-strategise!

Need more focus on the market
and that i really need to start studying
as its already April.

Cant believe im going to US
next month already!

And keeping myself motivated
to still lose weight is a top priority.

I guess i'll be pretty busy
occupying myself in 2012.

Lets make the rest of the year worth it!

Oh and actually finishing
that last Twilight book
which ive been totally hesitating
because if i finish it,
that will be the end of the story for good!

***

Just something random
i would like to share.





Im totally crushing on
her dress which is so my type
of an evening wear.

Voluminousness hair
and smokey eyes totally
completes the look. :)

Dont go breaking my achy-breaky heart.

I hate how whenever the market
smiles at you at the end of the day
with that curvy, evil smile
on its intraday chart
that totally freaks you out.

Its heartbreaking really.

I need to re-strategise.

Watch out, YOU!
Sher's coming back!

Blogging at 4am

Funny how I have suddenly missed
being up so early just to look
at the market and trade.

I guess its all about flexibility
and doing it on your own time,
that's why i love this new job.

I know i havent blogged much
about the new place but its only because
i want to maintain it discreet.

I had such an efficient day yesterday
that it just gets my adrenaline pumping
to wake up and decide to trade,
but then after a long hard thought
while watching the market roll,
i decide that sleep was more important
and that i know if i leave a trade
in an open position,
I wont exactly have a good night's rest.

Money will always be there
to chase for another day, right? haha

I cant wait...

... for tomorrow's bridal gown shopping trip!
... to go to San Francisco and Las Vegas this coming May!
... to start work again!
... to start studying again!
... to be Mrs. Sah. :)

Gone were the days.

I remember those days
back in England when i couldnt sleep,
I would type it all out
whatever i had in my mind
onto this little blog.

Now I would think hard and long
on what to share here.

Life isnt that boring
but more like it being content.

With my days being limited now
at my current work place,
im starting to feel nostalgic already
and Im really hoping my new place
would be a huge improvement
to where I was from.

My relationship is still blossoming
every single day even after more than 5 years
and I couldnt ask for a more
wonderful companion. :)

New goals have been set
to my new soon-to-be work place
and im actually fairly excited.

Im only going to deeply miss
the wonderful friends ive made
over the past 1 and a half years
at my current work place. :)

So maybe coming back to Malaysia
isnt half bad after all,
although i must admit i still desire
to move overseas for work.

Ahhh.

Life is such an amazing journey.

For now,
Im just glad Airasia has given us
an opportunity for a "Credit Shell" option
to our Bangkok flood situation
and also im making a short 2D1N trip
to my 3rd home, Sunny Singapore
in the mid of November for my sister's convocation.

I need to go travel more yo!




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Absolutely Beautiful from Head to Toe





I super super love.

I can imagine myself
wearing this Chloe Resort 2012 dress
and the gorgeous two-toned Channel pumps
are to die for.

Now if only i could work myself
to have her body. haha

Source: *http://www.redcarpet-fashionawards.com/category/blog/blog-celebrities/kirsten-dunst/*

Parents meet up!

Okay so both of us
were worried on so many levels
that the dinner would go wrong.


'What if there was nothing to talk about?'
'What if they didnt like each other?'
'What if one of them offended each other?'
'Will this be super awkward?'

And i was freaking out
about half an hour
to the dinner. T_T

But everything went well as planned
and there was just really nothing
to worry about.

We didnt even have to bring out
our 'Topics To Talk About' cards! haha!






Ahhh.
What a beautiful picture.




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Reminding myself.


As much as it kills me to leave
all my wonderful colleagues behind,
i swear i never ever agreeing to do
both day and night shift again
at my next job.

Im officially expressing my hatred
towards people who overwork their employees.

Aih.

Where to start?

Ok i know its been a while
but its freaking difficult
just trying to exit a bank.

Ive been letting down
wayyy too many people these few weeks
and those who are always so kind to me.

I cant seem to be able to communicate
with my friends on these matter
because honestly its something ive to go thru
myself rather than any advice given
that is able to make me feel better...

Plus to admit that this
has been the best place
ive ever worked so far,
is killing me having to decide
to leave all of them.

Funny how vaguely ive to word
all my sentences so this 'personal' blog
wont become a political issue.

Aih. Thats a corporate life i suppose.


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KetiakWayne!





Lunch at Wong Kok Char Chan Teng @ Mid Valley
earlier this month with KetiakWayne
who came to visit from Singapore.

Damnnnn ive missed you babe.

GC's Farewell.

*Edited*






L-R: KBL, Me, GC

At El Cerdo, Changkat
last night for drinks and dinner.

I hate to admit this
but i really feel like crying.

Despite all the yelling at work,
im so freaking gonna miss her.


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Happy Things #3





Philip is home!