Heart-to-blog

Truth is,
i havent been blogging properly
about anything ive been feeling
for the past few months.

How honestly i am in love with my work,
how grateful i am for the one person
who has always been there for me,
how i am constantly battling with myself
to overcome something that only i would understand.

Truth is,
ive been distracting myself,
with movies, tv shows, outtings,
exams, gym classes (soon!) and the boyfriend
is because i dont want to be reminded
of how upset i am
that will eventually affect my career.

That's what i worry most about this past 8 months.

I worry so much about my career,
about if upsetting situations
distracts me or how i cant excel as quick.

And sometimes i cant believe
how selfish i am to be thinking
how it would negatively would affect my work
when bad situations are obviously
affecting my everything else
and instead of trying to fix things,
i shun them away.

Lock them up in a lil treasure chest
and dump the key far far away
so that even i cant find it.

I guess thats one thing
everyone would have... baggages,
and ive so much to learn from
my overpowering supervisor
who is so strong at her emotions.

It's funny how
situations are quite bad
but i dont take them lightly
and still dont see how this new year
has been quite horrible so far.

But i guess you've got to be naive
about some things, right?
Or we'll never get pass this
and never look on the greener end.

Yeah.
Distractions are good.
Distractions are great.

Thank god for the hair spa today,
I really needed that.


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Love like woe!





Okay.
The video is a little WTF?!

But it's really a pick me up
for a very upsetting day. :)