Getting back in shape!

Im finally back home after 14 days away
and it feels so great to be fresh
and totally rejuvenated (except for the jetlag of course haha).

One thing i loved being back home
after a long long holiday,
was having to shop
and eat the amount of calories
I choose everyday,
which makes me feel in control of my body.



So craving for something healthy yesterday,
I whipped up a tofu salad quickly
in less than 15 mins for lunch.

Ingredients:
1) Half a romaine (which i thought was too much as well -_-)
2) One small red onion
3) One piece of tofu
4) 10 cherry tomatoes (again i thought that 5-7 was enough actually)
5) Furikake
6) Japanese salad dressing - roasted sesame seed (my fave!)

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On a side note,
Ive a little less than a month to go
to my exam and I feel so unprepared.

Maybe rescheduling would be a good idea. -_-

Changing Life Courses.

Somehow, things arent exactly
how i want them to be from Day 1 of 2013.

And ive suffered so much heartbreak
in this past 2-3 weeks alone,
that its enough to put an elephant down.

It's eating me slowly
and i wake up fresh every morning
only to be reminded by my failures
to get upset all over again.

So as much as i hate quitting,
after receiving that midnight email,
ive decided thats it for me.

And focusing on something else
thats more related to me,
instead of trying to finish
something i can never have the ability
to achieve after so many years.

If this doesnt work out,
then i will need another reshuffle.

For now,
im focusing on the upcoming
new exam in May,
which ive never sat before
and also my father-in-law who just
had a surgery yesterday evening
and currently in recovery.

No point crying over split milk, right?

Party Vibe.

So the day of the exam,
I woke up early, took my own sweet time
and even arrived half an hour early
before the reporting time.

Then I realised
i have forgotten the most important thing
even after going through again and again
all the things i need for the exam.

My passport. -_-

I had packed it with the bag
that i was going to go to Melbourne with!

It was the ONLY source of identification
that they accepted,
even identification cards weren't allowed.

So.
I flew home like a mad person
and i dont know how but managed
to go from Sunway to Damansara
and then back to Sunway in under 30 mins.

The best part of them all,
was me rushing into my apartment lift,
and this other guy came in after me,
looked at me and said,

"You too huh? Clubbing right?"

I had no make up, sweat pants,
a hoodie and it was 7:42am.

Really? Do people still party
till the next morning?!

So anyway, its now a day after the exam
and im so used to waking up at 7am
either for work or to study for the past
5 months that i just feel suddenly so lost
and to be quite frankly,
a lil nervous about my new found freedom.
(Altho i might add it wont last long -_- haha)

Off to Melbourne in a few hours
and im actually quite excited
to travel on the plane alone
as its been a while since
flying to London often alone in the past
when i was staying in the UK.

Will update more when im there!
See you, Melbourn-ers real soon!

Little Less than a Week (Post-it edition)

(Excuse the ugly, peeling manicure. No time for that now. -_-)


Trying on a lil motivation
with post-its
and had this on twitter.

Some of the responses i got:

Susu: You do know it comes off right?
MSG.Hennwei: You know you cant see it since it's on your forehead right?


Sheez. T_T


Yes. It's lil less
than a week to go
to my exam,
and im majorly restless.

So im going around
putting on post-its
to remind myself to stay away
from 'deadly' temptations.





No Ellen, No Facebook
and No Surfing the Internet!

I watch wayyy too much of
*The Ellen Show*.





And of course,
the greatest temptation
of all, SLEEP.


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So am gonna take a break
from blogging for at least a week
until my exam is over.

Absolutely restraining myself!

Wish me luck peeps!
See you guys in a week!


XOXO

Study Break.

Everything I need
on the little coffee table
that i study on everyday.

My financial calculator +
mock papers for practice +
pens + extra papers for workings
+ of course a picture of me
and *Rosline* for motivation.

Yes. You've never left my mind, love.


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Movie Review: Breaking Dawn Part 2





The long awaited final movie
of the Twilight Saga is finally here
and im so proud to say
that i was one of the few
who caught the premier here in Malaysia.

As expected in the books,
it was exactly the way it was
in the beginning
but with a very unexpected twist.

Yes. The ending was so different
from the book that i was literally
at the edge of my seat,
shouting out "WHAT?!"

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

Whatever it is,
i can promise all you fans of the book,
that it wouldnt be upsetting.

It was still a great show
except how creepy it was
(which i thought they could do better)
with copying and pasting
Renesmee's face on all the babies
because she grows fast
and needed them all to look similar.

Other than that,
still no doubt a wonderful show
and a must-see in cinemas.

So go check it out,
in a cinema near you!

***

Some photos taken
at the premier
of Breaking Dawn Part 2.

Bring it!

Getting motivated
for a long period of time
just isnt easy.

No one can be consistently
be so motivated every 24-7
for 6 months
and as i mentioned many times
before on how i feel drained,
at least now I have something
to look forward to. :)

Upon a desperation need,
to find some post-exam activities,
I managed to stumble upon
*Airasia*'s page and found
more cheaper flights to Melbourne
than i was looking for 2 months ago
so that i can join the boy
and his family for about a week!

The boy will be heading over
about 2-3 days earlier with his family,
as i will be sitting for my exam
but imma head over to the land down under
as soon as i have my freedom!

It may not be a romantic getaway
but this is just absolutely exciting for me
as ive been waiting for this for 2 months now!

Okay.
Now i can study. ;p


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Halloween 2012


So for Halloween this year,
I wasnt really keen on going out,
(due to my exam and well, im old -_- haha)
but nonetheless still into
the Halloween spirit by dressing up
and meeting friends for dinner at Allo Paris!







So had some time during lunch
to head over to Toys R' Us
to shop for something for the boy
to wear for our dinner that night.





So many choices!

Wanted to buy the horse head
and roses and asked him to pretend
to be 'Prince Charming'!

He refused anyway. -_- haha






So we settled for something from Star Wars,
(I still have no idea whats his character called)
and even managed to get him a lightsaber for under RM30! haha





Somehow the boy picked my outfit
and insisted me to dress as a pirate
that night. -_-

So i had to whip up last minute
from whatever scrap i had from my closet
and managed to put together
quite an amazing costume for a pirate! haha!










What a great and quiet night out
with friends and family. :)


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Halloween at Overtime, Sunway Pyramid!









There was beer splashing + superheroes acting
+ crazy cousins' gathering + just lots of alcohol.

Too bad it had to end early for me
as i had classes the following day. -_-

A 5-min Update.

It's counting down 3 weeks to
one of the biggest event of my life
that ive been taking close to 6 months
just to prepare for it.

Im freaking out deep down inside
but decided that maybe getting stressed
just really isnt the right combination.

I havent had a break for a long time
and am so thankful for the short weekday.
(Work: Mon-Fri, School: Sat, Training: Sun)

The worse part is ive nothing to look forward to
after my exam on 1 Dec as i have nothing planned
and its annoying the cr*p out of me.

I should have something to motivate me! haha!

I will admit im absolutely drained
from work and studies
but im not about to break down
and give up right now,
especially not when im so close.

Anyway, ive so many belated posts
to put up especially the Halloween post.
(which i think by now excitement
would have died down already haha)

Will get them up soon! xxx

Working Hard.

Sorry for the lack of posts lately
but its been overwhelming with
work on weekdays and classes on weekends.

Im so tired that i dont know where to begin
and the boy had been taking up extra jobs
just so he could support us and
our upcoming wedding.

Will try to blog more soon.

There are plenty of belated pictures
that i would loveeee to share. :)

Coping with depression

So i think ive reached a stage
that im quite severely depressed.

Work is actually picking up
in a good way but at the wrong time
and im so overwhelmed by my exam in 44 days
that i feel like im about to
break down and cry.

Im under so much pressure
that i think its drowning my spirits,
my inspirations and even my dreams.

In fact, im so tired that
im thinking of giving up
which is the worse part of all
because the ego part of me
still wants to move forward.

Also another thing is,
when it comes to situations like this,
no one really understands you.

They say they know what you're going thru
or rather they understand how you're feeling
but its never that mutual stress level
that they can actually feel for you.

It upsets me because
i can never get that same understanding
or rather level of comfort i need
and instead wounding up to feel all alone.

Plus, Im so deprived from a holiday
that i think ive really burned myself out.

I just hope with the
last few weeks i have left,
i will manage to strive thru
and all of this would be worth it.

If only.

Disappointment.

I dont know what im doing wrong
but its so difficult to cope
with just barely level 1 of CFA.

Im trying to work my butt off
with my studies but it seems
just so easy for my other classmates
to score amazingly with only
their first try of the mock exam.

Im so upset.

Plus with only one and a half months away,
its really stressing me out.

I want to pass it so badly,
that its causing a stir in my emotions.

I need to get it together! T_T

Standing out from the Crowd.

Now that's an ideal man.

Even if that weather
doesnt make me melt,
he definitely would.




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Penning down my goals


I made a list.

In fact I made a calender
out of my list on the things
i would want to do before
i turn 30.

Okay not a complete list
but its more of academic achievements
i would want to accomplish for my own
self improvements and im feeling
uberly excited to my new but
extremely tight-on-schedule plans.

Which also concludes
me cutting down more
of my already cut-down travel plans
all the way to 2015
and possible till 2017. -_-

So i might as well take the excitement
out from planning holiday trips
and put it into future planning.

My god.
Im all grown up...
and boring. -_- haha!

Late night indulgence.

While the boy had his
late night dinner,
I brought my school work out
to do some revision.

The best part is having to indulge
in a hot cup of Horlicks,
that makes you feel so warm
and fuzzy inside.

What a perfect night. :)

A week of absence.

Okay so its been a week.

Theres just so much
that ive been wanting to say
but ive got all mixed feelings inside
to reveal most of the things
thats been bubbling inside of me
as not forgetting this is still
a very much public blog.

First of all,
its now less than a year to the wedding
and im so beyond panicking with
all the things that ive been putting
on hold for 2 years. -_-

I had a great recommendation
and help over the long weekend
but im still worried over the fact
that i now have less than a year
to prepare a HUGE party. -_-

Plus my plans to return to the gym,
is so undisciplined. -_-

Im keeping whatever energy i have left
to keep me lasting throughout 2012.

I think at the moment,
having everything in my life
to be on track and on schedule
is the most important.

First thing to cross off my list,
is that damn level 1 paper. haha

Like a boss.

Literally. haha

Mum took a picture
of daddy in their office
just the other day.

Hehe. Yeah dad!
Tell 'em who's boss! hoho


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Some self-planning.


Update: Okay looks like its a no go for Guangzhou. -_- SIGH!


With much frustration
for quite sometime,
im finally picking myself up
and working things out.

Its officially less than a year
to the big day and i have yet
to go look for my 'Kuah',
which is the Chinese traditional
wedding costume.

After stopping for over a month
due to health reasons,
i intend to start back my gym sessions.

Also since I really cant go anywhere
till i finish my exams,
I hope my family would agree
to the trip to Guangzhou
this coming January 2013.

So that's:

1) Start gym again
2) Study hard. At least 2-3 hours daily.
3) Work hard and build my career!

After my exams in Dec,
I would be putting down
the deposit for my gown
and also go 'Kuah' hunting,
before starting with my
Level 2 classes.

The next 365 days is going
to be a wonderful and unforgettable year!

Didnt go well.

Ok so it didnt go
as well as i hoped it would
and i admit i was devastated
by his words so piercing harsh,
that i dont think he noticed it
through his thick skin.

I was so heartbroken
with him being so stereotyped
and judging without knowing
what ive gone thru and what i will
go through for my dreams
but that's okay
because im stronger than this.

I was sweating like crazy
and if my track records
cant prove to you how much
I really need it,
then theres no point begging
because just as i got home
another door opened
to another part of achieving my goals.

So I took two panadols last night,
slept for only 6 hours
and eyes are puffy as hell
that i cant see my screen properly
but im not going to let you or any stereotypes
bring me down on achieving my dreams.

And for those who wanted to know
what he said,
he said he thought i couldnt do it
because i was FEMALE.

Yes.
So let the judging begin.

Something Big is Coming.

Ive refrained from talking about it
so that i wouldnt jinx things
but im so nervous that im literally shivering.

Nothing is set in stone yet
but it would definitely be a milestone
if i get this opportunity.

A true honour!

Okay.
Now wish me luck. >_<

72 hours of hibernation.

Its official.

It just hit a record breaking
72 hours of me hiding out
in my parents' place hibernating
as im down with a serious flu and cough.

I have not left the house
nor changed out of my
home clothes or nighties
for 3 straight days.
(I showered lah haha)

Ive been cooped up
watching shows and studying occasionally
and reorganising my life basically
from restructuring my goals
to planning the finances on the wedding.

The monthly PMS that hit me
2 days ago really didnt help the fact
that i just didnt feel like going out anyway
and i just loved that mum was always around
to make sure there are food always on the table.

I feel so spoiled
and it may only be 30 mins
away from my place
but it seems like such a wonderful
and well deserving holiday
that i havent had for months.

And of course im gathering strength
and confidence to continue on my road
to achieving my life goals,
even if it seems so out of reach at the moment.

It's a 50% chance if i tried isnt?

Time to get my life on track
but first, I need to concentrate on recovery!

Life changing.

I would say the past week
had been fairly difficult on me.

I have been feeling slight feverish
for a couple of days
and on top of that,
some really difficult challenges
in my job had really put me to a test
of patience.

I would say I was close to
breaking down and cry,
as I hate feeling like a failure.

I know i'll bounce back eventually soon
but it seems like all the hard work
ive been putting in had been wiped out
and its for me to start all over again.

Also might I add,
having to do part time studying
is really taking a toll on me
and im feeling the stress, pressure
and the one thing i crave most now, sleep.

So ive decided
to take this weekend
a little slower and relax
as I havent had a proper weekend
to actually just kick back and do nothing.

Also after a super busy 2 weeks,
i finally found time today
to go back to the gym.

It feels so good to be back on the treadmill
although it might take me a while again
to get my stamina back.

On another note,
its back to the annual tradition that my family do
for the 7th Chinese month aka Ghost month,
to go on vegetarian the entire month,
which starts on the 17th.

I must say that i am rather excited
this time round.

I mean after all ive been doing
49 days of vegetarian TWICE
in the past year for both my
grandfather and *grandmother*,
that passed away 6 months apart.

So an easy 30 days is prolly nothing
to me now isnt? hehe ;p

Thank you. :)

My new gorgeous laptop
that was given as a surprise present
by someone-important-to-me-
but-im-not-allowed-to-reveal. :)

Now what am i going to do
with my *5-year-old pink laptop*?




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Sacrifices.

As heartbroken as it is
ive decided not to buy
anymore airtickets UNTIL
after the wedding. -_-

However, I might still be going
for the Guangzhou trip in January,
and the Europe trip in May next year,
which would be sponsored. ;p

After a string of events that happened yesterday,
it gave me some tiny hope of motivation
to work hard hard and complete my CFA
level 1 in December and level 2 in June.

It's a serious long shot
but im determined,
and i know sacrifices have to
take place in order to achieve my goals.

Dec 2012: CFA Level 1
June 2013: CFA Level 2
September 2013: MA BIG DAY! :D

We can have loads of time to travel
after everything for our honeymoon right? hehe

It's time to save up, yo!


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PS: Oh and on a random note,
remember when i mentioned Jean
who is 4 months *pregnant*
in early August?

Well she just found out yesterday
that she's having twins! :D

CONGRATULATIONS DARLING!

What to plan for the CFA results?

So the level 1 and level 2 results
for June 2012 is out today.

Its so exciting and im so nervous
for all my fellow mates.

People were already planning
on what to do the day after
they get their results.

Some plan for a long holiday,
some plan to take a day leave
whether results were good or bad,
some dont even plan to open their emails
until the day they feel lucky. O_o

It's so scary to know only
38% of the people who took level 1
and 42% for level 2 around the world
had passed.

That's more than half
that took the paper and failed. -_-

I cant wait to get it
over and done with
and im even planning
to do level 2 paper
in June next year.

So im prolly going to go
for a short holiday
after getting my results,
despite it being bad or good,
which would be somewhere
in late January 2013.

Wow. I really cant wait for 2013.

It's gonna be a smurftastic year.




*Updated my travel list* :D