Apologies!

I apologise for all the links not working
and i know ive realised it for a few days now
but havent came around to fixing everything!

Rushing out to send wedding invitations
before the ghost festival (tomorrow!)
then i'll have time to do something about this!

Stay tuned for this space! xxx

It's life as you know it.

Found out some things lately.

Some bad and some good.

But most of all,
i found the people involved
in the news all pretty amazing.

How love really conquers all
and for those who just got out of love
after so many years,
i wonder how they manage to pull
a smile all day long
without feeling tired.

There were 6 of us in college.

Three pairs and one by one dies off,
makes me think that the only reason
sometimes i hold on to this
is for the sake of winning.

Is that pathetic?

On second thought,
maybe its not just for the win,
it really is sincere. :)


-----------------------------------------


Too many events lately
and too few pictures.

I shall just do a collaboration
of them at the end of the month. ;p

I really amuse myself.

First I got cut by a butterknife
and then i got cut by a *vacuum cleaner*.






Im breaking all records now
to get a deep cut by a yogurt cup.

Seriously no joke.
Dont laugh. T_T

It hurts like hell ok.

Was thinking of skipping lunch
and decided on a cup of yogurt
but now im losing food
and losing blood.

Seriously wtf. T_T


--------------------------------------


Happy Dates!


June: JasonLim coming back to Malaysia!
25th July: My fave twins, Norah and Edith are coming to Malaysia! and maybe Lau too!
August: Oikum coming back to Malaysia!
October: AnimeAde and PerkyChris are coming to Malaysia!

And soon,
I'll be able to plan my Christmas holiday!

I am in so need of a
traveling plan man. >_<

On another note,
it's my 1000th post!




------------------------------------------------


Sandakan Part II


Related posts: *Sandakan Part I*





The return
of the Jedi. -_-

HAHA!








Lunching at
the *English Tea House & Restaurant*.






God i love the colours. :)

This is the problem with
blogging belated posts...
i dont remember what the temple's name
is called anymore for the life of me. T_T

Oh god.

I dont know what's worse.

Me being a total lousy blogger
who brings her camera everywhere
but doesnt take it out at all
and having tonnes of belated posts
waiting to be edited...

OR

Me being so impatient
about things lately.

Ive different priorities in life now
but its really difficult juggling
with this blog, studies, family and relationships.

I dont even go out anymore!
(Which is partially great
cuz i save money!
and i get to cook which i love!)

I really dont know where all my time
is going to really
and its hard keeping track
with making my performance
a consistent matter.

So im telling myself,
'Be a lil more patient, Sher. More patient."

I'll blog a picture post soon I promise.

Ive still got Macau, Sandakan
my 2nd graduation in KL and loads of random pics
lying in my files.

Yes.
I totally forgot to take anything
while i was in Singapore.

Champion. T_T HAHA



------------------------------------


Replanning.


Replanning my travelling plans that is.


Okay so let's see.

2010 ive already gone
to Hong Kong, Macau,
Singapore and Sandakan.

New York seems like a lot to save
for the year end
and with everything still unstable,
I hate to say this
but i'll have to postpone
my rockefeller white christmas. :(

So 2011:

1) April: Australia (Sydney, Newcastle and Melbourne)
2) September: Korea


2010:

1) Phuket :)

Where's the humour gone?

I think work + socialising = super dead tired T_T
really takes the smurf out of me.

Looking back at happier old posts,
i wonder 'my goodness where have my humour gone!?'
or rather 'my youth'!

Ive different priorities now.

Different responsibilities
and totally different lifestyle.

It's hectic
but its a good change,
well in a mature kind of way,
which i think kinda made
the blog a lil more dull
with the style of blogging
ive evolved into.

What happened to the smurfette
who blogged like 3-4 times a day
with loads of properly
semangat-ed photoshopped pictures!

Now everytime i think of blogging something,
by the time i reach home super late at night,
i would have totally forgotten about it. T_T

And im so tired
that the only time i think of it
is when im feeling down
and just want to pen my feelings down,
which makes it sad really. T_T HAHA

So just reliving my days
when i used to travel so much,
was quite thin and was just alcholly-happy.





All picked out randomly from *November 2006*.

Dont ask me why that particular archive month.
It seriously was really random. haha.

*The Pink Post*
*Yes. Yes. I know my Geography is bad.*
*Bullocks*
*It was hell...*
*Everyone's gotta love that unemployed cripple*
*The London surprise and TinyVicky's Birthday*
*Too much alcohol*

So much has changed since then.

My Geography has definitely improved (by a bit -_-)
The exboyfriend has been a designer for 2 years which is his second job already. :)
TinyVicky is married and now pregnant with a different boy


Wow. haha.

About losing everything.

I dont know whats going on with me.

What minute it was the best day of my life
and the next it was the worse.

I lost two people i cared about
and I lost my thumbdrive.

My thumbdrive that had
2 of my 2000 word assignment,
20 over research papers,
cover letters,
and my CV.

All gone just like that
in 24 hours
and im so tired
but crying over spilt milk
just wouldnt do it.

Im thankful I have an unedited back up
for one of the assignments;
the other I had just printed it out earlier
to show it as a draft to my lecturer
and shall retype all 1700 words in a bit.

I feel so tired and stressed
that im about to crash.

On another note,
I was reading thru my old posts with Ade
and i forgot how i used to blog.

It was so much more cheerie
and the pictures were so well photoshopped. O_o

I guess it was because
I started getting worried
on who reads my blog
and what might offend them,
so i started censoring stuff out
and tend to leave out the best parts,
which is so totally not the reason why
i started a blog in the first place.

It's about time i put more effort
in keeping my diary pretty
because its fun looking back
and having a laugh.






"I think i change my mind. I take back what I said."


-----------------------------------


:)


"Bu, Kayee just told me two of her friends that are our age are getting married! When are we getting married?"
"Just let me know. All i need to do is bring a suit and myself."
"Tomorrow can?"
"Tomorrow cannot lah. Tomorrow have to work."


Just me and him having a laugh.

October Confessions.

The whole point of having my own blog
is so that i can write whatever i want,
whenever i feel like it to.

Its been crazy for the past October month
and if you dont know yet,
ive missed out on alot of things
that i felt like writing
for the past one month.

I felt like ive lost the privacy
of this blog,
not that i dont understand
the conditions of having a public blog anyway
but ive lost its purpose.

See, it was suppose to be like a diary i talk to,
to help me on my journey
when i left my home country of 2 decades.

At the time,
it was prolly the eternal belles,
some of my cousins,
my sister and the boyfriend
who actually reads my blog.

I dont even know if the belles still do
and to be honest,
i havent heard from any single one of them
for the past few months.

So yes, where were we?

Ah. October.

Ive gone clubbing 5 nights a week,
Ive got drunk once,
Ive been betrayed and stabbed (not literally ;p),
Ive reconnected with old friends,
been making wonderful new friends,
and some really irritating ones...,
Ive heard something ive wanted to hear
for the past 2 years,
Ive been rejected twice
and broke down once.

Yes.
All within one month
and despite all those,
ive been immensely under pressure.

Im starting to think,
there may not be hope
as deadlines are closing in.

I cant believe the thought of giving up
is swimming at the back of my head.

I guess i am tired
and balancing more modules
than anyone has in uni,
plus all the job applications
are seriously wearing me out
both physically and mentally.

I cant do the whole
stay up till late
and wake up early scenes much anymore,
i can feel age dwelling upon me,
but its really funny
how people are still amazed
the fact, that i could still manage
to concentrate the next morning
after a whole long night of partying.

Right now,
I cant wait for our trip to Barcelona,
where I can learn Spanish
and have Spanish omelettes!

It's been a while since ive travelled
and im getting itchy.

Besides,
it would be my first time traveling
to a European country without family.

I promise
that no matter what
i will get to the bottom of blogging
on Barcelona when I get back.
As i never manage to finish any of my trips. >_<


For now,
im gonna read up
on a couple of handouts
before heading to bed early.

Im gonna start fresh tomorrow
and watch out people for this space,
because i cant wait to keep you updated
when I actually succeed.

Yes,
writing this makes me feel
so much better
and im so not giving up on my dreams!





Oh and it is the last day
of the month so
happy halloween, people!





---------------------------------------


I wrote *this* 2 years ago.

Honestly,
I cant believe i wrote that! haha

It's so weird how missing home
has affected me so much
on all my decisions
and now i dont even want to go home at all!

A couple of days ago,
I was told that a friend of mine
felt the exact same way.

Homesick, lonely,
and well a LDR to handle.
(i think LDRs are root to all evil. >_<)

It might be 2 years ago
but i can still remember
how much pain it was to endear.

But i still gave it a chance
unlike her who made a selfish decision
which would prolly (in my opinion)
cause her to be more homesick.

I didnt quite understand
when people said,

"You're seriously missing out on this."

I was so blind-sided
with the fact of wanting
to go home so much
that i really didnt get it
till a year later.

I just hope you make the right choice,
my dear friend.

Goodness.

Okay.
This has got to officially be the most hideous banner ever made.
but it comprises of my OWN basic knowledge and skill of photoshop.
MY CREATION and im proud of it. :p

Will prolly just hang it up there til some 'kind soul' come help fix it up.



-----------------------------------------------

I don't want to go back.

It's so upsetting to hear dad nagging about me delaying my preparation for my departure during a wonderful, smurf-jolly-good dinner with the cousins.

Suddenly realise it's already the 4th of January.
I have only another good 2 more days left.
and i haven't been able to see so many other friends,
or rather study for my exam which is in another 4 more days.

fuck. im panicking. :(

Workaholic Boyfriend.

upset upset upset.

this week has been obviously so much better than the previous. but my boyfriend is turning into a serious workaholic. and the worst part is, external parties don't understand how much workload he actually have. what im afraid most is that his friends will think its my fault that he hasn't been spending time with them because of me. but the truth is...

I don't even see him either!

the only time i get to actually spend time is when he picks me up to college and when he fetches me home in the car, occasionally during meal times and during career fair meetings which is all about work work work.



i especially hate those who thinks he's like a robot. yeah, he could have promised them to help out in the tasks but he's just too nice to say no. and for that they blame him?!

EXCUSE ME! what about me?! I only have less than a month for goodness sake! i cant even remember when was the last time we actually hung out just strolling through malls or something. its seriously damn sad. he becomes that he has no life.



don't these people remember what is it like to be in love? especially since if you're about to be apart from each other for 3 freaking years?! *dies*

i want my boyfriend back. please. im just a girl who wants to be with the man she loves. leave us alone. aihz. :(

---

Busy Busy Busy.

have been spending all my afternoons sitting in mezzernine floor, studying.

yes. i seriously am. sue me.

will be smurf busy all the way till the end of next week. and exams are seriously closing up, i still haven't had time to study for my insurance exam.

Seriously Getting Worried.

ah. haven't post about the cousins' last dinner together a day before Nick's departure. Nick left on the 7th of aug, monday (yesterday).

Good luck Nick. we know that you can do it! so proud of you!

urgh. got to do my visa, study for BOTH my exams, work for taylors and the career fair this and next week...

Die.

---

New 'Pink Smurf' Header!

It's still not complete. wanted a picture to be put in but the boyfriend has hardly any time.

well that's it for now! toodles!

*Smurf Proud*

i smurf you!!

i've been pretty grumpy lately. o-k fine. very grumpy. i've been not able to control myself lately and blowing up whenever i feel like it. I'm just really thankful that M.S.G. has been so supportive and caring towards what i've been going through. he even got me a red balloon to cheer me up. its not pink but it's close enough tho. :D




he even took time out from his work to make me this! a pink smurf!! yay!






it still needs some touching up to do as i have short brown hair but oh well. :)
he even started on the header which i have been chasing him to do for the past 3 days.



it's not perfect yet but so far those are the correct fonts i want. and dear, violet is not pink. :)
*hee hee*

well thanks alot dear. it's really nice of you to help me out with the designs when you're already so busy with your work. ;p will be waiting patiently for the work-in-progress, yah?!



I smurfff you!!